I think that is all the confirmation I need.
I've been seriously thinking about killing myself for the last few weeks.
And hearing that today was just the final straw for me.
I know I've been on here a few times, thinking about it. But never did go through with it, thanks to people here.
But I just don't see things getting better for me and hearing someone say that to me, just pushed me over the edge."
As a [I don't know what I am] I can tell you, that there has to be an opposing, yet complementary force to your very being.
Opposing doesn't mean "your enemy" or "rival" but rather a thing that separates you from the other, making you.. well YOU. It's the thing that makes you feel you are something, it supports your existence. Like a wall or cane you lean onto opposes your downward motion, and thus support you from falling. But a wall or a cane is just an opponent of your fall, among many other things. It can exist without you leaning onto it.
But the opposition of your unique essence can't exist without you. No light without darkness, Yin-Yang, Newton's third law of motion, the stucture of an atom.. all that. There is an opposing force that needs you and wants you, like you want and need it too.
I think you will find it and it will find you, if you follow your feelings, if you feel pain or suffering you are moving away from it, and if you feel better and happier, you are moving towards it. Use your feelings as your compass.
Oh also NEVER think what you feel, just feel what you feel.
But I just don't see things getting better for me and hearing someone say that to me, just pushed me over the edge."
As a [I don't know what I am] I can tell you, that there has to be an opposing, yet complementary force to your very being.
Opposing doesn't mean "your enemy" or "rival" but rather a thing that separates you from the other, making you.. well YOU. It's the thing that makes you feel you are something, it supports your existence. Like a wall or cane you lean onto opposes your downward motion, and thus support you from falling. But a wall or a cane is just an opponent of your fall, among many other things. It can exist without you leaning onto it.
But the opposition of your unique essence can't exist without you. No light without darkness, Yin-Yang, Newton's third law of motion, the stucture of an atom.. all that. There is an opposing force that needs you and wants you, like you want and need it too.
I think you will find it and it will find you, if you follow your feelings, if you feel pain or suffering you are moving away from it, and if you feel better and happier, you are moving towards it. Use your feelings as your compass.
Oh also NEVER think what you feel, just feel what you feel.
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