Giving yourself to yourself

I realize in the eyes of women and society and even most men; I have NO value as a human being (my character or what I actually feel in my life, sufferings or pleasures). I might be able to get "love" or "societal praise" if I become "enough" but at the end of the day I know it's all bullshit. Every woman I date, I look into her eyes now and I see the same empty illusion of empathy for me. Smiles that quickly fade into grimace as soon as they are expected to feel caring for me in any real way. There is no empathy for me. As painful as that still feels, there is some liberation to it, I suppose.

It hurts only because you have invested so much your own emotions in them, without getting anything you value in return, but think of it this way: if you buy bad stocks and you lose money, investing more into those shares won't make it any better.

It was just a bad deal, but for some reason you are attached to those shares you bought, there is no hope in them, just get rid of them and your personal attachments to them.

Those feelings you wanted from women were never there, they were in you, you just projected those feelings on to an outside object. Just give yourself the things you hope and want from others.

I know that I'm not that special, why would I be? Why would someone stay with me, if there's a better deal? What makes me so special? Would I do that myself to a woman if I found an upgrade? So now that I know I really have nothing to offer to women, they just don't want what I have, and if they do, they can't really offer me anything in return. So is there something I can offer to myself? Is there something I could give to myself? Could I give myself something to make me feel better, could I give myself something I like, something I deserve? Can I make my life better?

Women were not interested in me, or in my honesty, in my help to improve their lives, support and trust, but I am interested in those things. I mean those are the things I was offering to women, and since they don't appreciate those things, but I do, so I gave them to myself. I know that I might not be an interesting person to others, but I am interesting to myself. I like myself, because I like the things I like, I have much incommon with myself:D

Just forget women, they have no value, they can't give you what you want nor what you deserve, how could they? I mean are you hurt that the people in imaginistan aren't interested in you? Do you feel bad that a washing machine isn't loyal to you and "chooses" go to with the guy who has the muscles to lift it, if the opportunity comes? Why do you care? They are empty inside. Be loyal to yourself. Give yourself to yourself fully, don't hold back, you deserve it:)